I already know that what I am going through now is my karma for the type of person I was. My reason for dropping this confession is to hope that people will learn from it, and at least I will be able to say I did something good. Please, if God elevates you or has elevated you to a position where you are able to help people, please help them and do not take advantage of them. I am not a good person, and I have not lived a good life. All my life, I’ve always been in a position where I could help people, right back to my university days. It continued into my NYSC days too. People met me to assist them so they could be posted to certain states. If you were a guy, I would ask for a ridiculous amount of money from you, and if you were a lady, I would give you the option to pay or sleep with me. Many ladies chose to sleep with me because it was cheaper and they could not afford the money I asked for. I always asked for something. I never did anything for free. Recently, life served me a bitter pill. A lady from my past pleaded with me to help her daughter secure a government job because she knew I had the connections to do so. I agreed but requested to meet her daughter, with the excuse of wanting to ask her some things that could help her in getting the job. My true intention was to sleep with her, which I did. This lady later came back to thank me for getting her daughter not just any government job, but a very good federal one. In the middle of our conversation, she told me that apart from helping her daughter, I had also unknowingly helped my own daughter. Years ago, when she was cheating on her then-boyfriend with me, she got pregnant but never saw the need to tell me since a wedding date had already been set for her and her current husband. I felt so disgusted and still feel disgusted about what I did. In order to never let the truth come out, I contacted her daughter (my daughter) and apologized to her. Though I could not let her know that I am her dad, I begged her never to let her mum find out what went down between us. She said to me that she actually wanted to commit the act with me because she is HIV positive and felt like I deserved to have it too. She said, considering the time that has passed since we slept together, she is certain I would test positive. And I did. This is the burden I now live with, and I share it only so that someone out there will choose a better path than I did. Any words of encouragement you have for me, will be appreciated. Thanks.