It feels like I am losing my mind. Me and my husband work in the same organization, just in different departments. To the outside world, he looks like the perfect man. Every month, his picture is shining on the notice board as Employee of the Month. Management celebrates him like he is the best thing that ever happened to the company. But at home, it is a different story. This same man cheats on me openly. He brings different women into our home without shame. On top of that, he beats me whenever he feels like it, leaving me with both physical and emotional scars. Yet, every time his office claps for him and hands him that award, I start questioning myself. I keep wondering, if his bosses knew how he really treats me behind closed doors, would they still see him as a star employee? Would they still plaster his face everywhere and reward him? Or maybe they would finally understand the demon I live with. The most painful part is that sometimes, when I see him celebrated, I begin to feel like maybe I am the problem. Maybe I deserve all the pain he puts me through. How can the same man be seen as an angel professionally, while at home, he is the devil? Is it really possible for one person to live two completely different lives?