When a Colleague Fails You at Your Lowest Point - NoCV
I am currently in a long-distance marriage, and honestly, it has not been easy. There was a particular day I received some very sad news. I was overwhelmed, emotionally drained, and I just did not want to be alone. I needed someone to talk to, someone familiar, someone I trusted. In that moment of vulnerability, I went to my male colleague’s house. At that time, my emotions were all over the place. I was not thinking straight, and I admit that. As we talked, one thing led to another. I leaned forward to kiss him, and he did not stop me. Instead, he leaned forward too. That was how we ended up sleeping together. After I left his place and my emotions settled, reality hit me hard. I felt deep disgust, shame, and disappointment in him. I am angry at myself, and I know I will carry this regret for a long time. However, I am pained by not just my own mistake, but his. I was vulnerable. I was not in the right frame of mind. A good colleague, a good friend, would have stopped me. He knew I was married. He knew I was emotionally unstable at that moment. Yet, he went ahead anyway. What hurts me the most is that he refuses to acknowledge he was at fault. He acts like nothing happened. I needed support, not exploitation. I needed a friend, but he was not one. Now, I see this guy every single day at work, and the anger inside me keeps growing. Please advise me. How do I suppress this anger before it consumes me? And if I cannot control it, is it better for me to resign before I do something I might regret forever?
